THE SHINING ODD

"It's not hard to fall in love with you, but it's hard to keep you... You have a lot of love in you which defines you can't think of one who is very special unless God opens your heart to someone that's a fate for you. If the fate turns away from you for the reason you're hard to please, you're still a success to your own destiny. I guess God has made you like a black diamond with a pearl refined... you are the shining odd!"

- The Ex

THE THING ABOUT LOVE IS...

"You are learning how love can come in many different varieties... and while this is very exciting, it also can be very confusing. Just remember to take things very slowly in any new relationships, and do not make too many assumptions about your growing feelings for someone. Let them just be what they are, and do not try to pigeonhole them into a certain category. Not everything has to have a name. Part of the magic of building something together is making it new and unique to the two of you."

Leo's Love Sign

ROADS UNTRAVELED

NOBODY ELSE

Inspired by 'Nobody Else' (Dato' CT Nurhaliza/Christian Alexander/Bryan Bouro)

SMILE

Inspired by 'Smile' (Charlie Chaplin)

TA'ARUF CINTA BERDIKARI

"Apabila kilat cinta telah menyambar hati yang ini, ketahuilah bahawa ada cinta dalam hati yang lain. Tiada bunyi tepuk tangan hanya dengan satu tangan tanpa tangan lain. Kebijaksanaan Ilahi adalah takdir dan ketetapan yang membuat kita cinta antara satu sama lain. Kerana takdir itu, setiap bahagian ini dipertemukan dengan jodohnya."

— keratan syair Jalaludin Rumi

FALLING IN LOVE

Inspired by 'Falling In Love' (Dato' CT Nurhaliza)

TAHAJJUD CINTA

Mampukah kau mencintaiku hanya dengan melihat mataku tanpa perlu membayangkan rupa parasku?

Mengertikah kau cinta di hatimu bila rupa parasku menjadikan kau taksub kepadaku?

Bolehkah kau mencintaiku seperti hatimu di hatiku?

TELATAH HATI KITA

http://fakhrulanour.blogspot.com/2011/07/telatah-hati-kita.html

BILA KITA

CITA & CINTA

GATRA

Inspired by 'Gatra' (Hafizah Naser)

HATI YANG TERTINGGAL (03/03)

HATI YANG TERTINGGAL (02/03)

HATI YANG TERTINGGAL (01/03)

ALONE AGAIN... NATURALLY

Inspired by 'Alone Again... Naturally' (Gilbert O'Sullivan)

KU BERJANJI KERNA CINTA

Inspired by 'Ku Berjanji Kerna Cinta' (Anuar Zain)

DIA

Inspired by 'Dia' (Fauziah Latiff)

SEKIAN LAMA

Inspired By 'Sekian Lama' (Dato' CT Nurhaliza)

MY LOVE, SWEET LOVE

Inspired by 'My Love, Sweet Love' (Patti La Belle)

SOFEA JANE

YANG KU TAHU CINTA ITU INDAH

Inspired by 'Yang Ku Cinta Itu Indah' (Afgan)

TANPA BATAS WAKTU

Inspired by 'Tanpa Batas Waktu' (Afgan)

BARU AKU TAHU CINTA ITU APA

Inspired by 'Baru Aku Tahu Cinta Itu Apa' (Indah Pertiwi)

CINTA DIAM-DIAM

Jangan mudah bersangka pada yang bersendiri, kerana dia mungkin sudah termiliki...

 "Selalunya hanya yang sedang bahagia berpasangan namun terpisah jauh di perantauan, senang bersendirian dan mengatur masa berbicara melalui talian. Berkongsi bersama teman-teman kata-kata yang merangsangkan fikiran dan membina harapan. Hanya pasangan yang benar-benar sedang dilamun cinta tidak suka membazirkan kata-kata yang berguna dan senang membuang segala bicara yang nista. Hanya yang tulus bertanggung-jawab dalam perhubungan ikhlas mereka, tidak akan selingkuh walau apapun cubaan." 

::: Ada lafaznya tidak bergendang

Inspired by 'Cinta Diam-Diam' (Febrian)

CINTA BUTA

Inspired by 'Cinta Buta' (Soulmate)

THAT'S MY GOAL

Inspired by 'That's My Goal' (Shayne Ward)

HATI ADA CINTA

UNINTENDED SOAKED IN MUSE

How do you feel when you're a big fan of MUSE falling for someone who confidently said "You listen to MUSE?! O-Ma-Gay... you're such a nerd!" 

Let me define such feeling for you--you wish you're in love with someone else! Right? But what can you do when falling in love with someone (especially at first sight), just like being unintended soaked in muse... means letting go is like leaving you dry. *sigh*

But how do you feel when you're driving around while listen to MUSE with your beloved (the anti-MUSE), suddenly he/she fluently sing along with one of your favorite tune from the group? I assume you will stop your car and start eagerly questioning "How can that be?!" Especially when you know the group better, but can't sing along fluently like your lover did. I bet you must be feeling awkwardly misled! 

Let me tell you this, there are those who happen to absorb something into their mind and heart, but they are unaware that maybe what they like exactly what they unintentionally try to avoid. So when it comes to MUSE, I was one of them! 

I didn't know that I could fluently sing most of MUSE songs without knowing its title or the group until one day, I got caught up with a song from my favorite new star, Adam Lambert titled 'Soaked'. What's the relevant? As far I'm concern, the reason why I was attached to MUSE music without knowing it came from them was because their music got a certain soul that only the group can create. They could even turn certain oldies songs to feel like theirs. So when I heard the song 'Soaked', it reminded me of the song 'Unintended'. Something came close without expectation, and in this case it was me with MUSE and their music genre.

So practically I'm just like everyone else who happen to be muse by content without thinking of knowing the subject. Therefore you see, it is in my concern to share or confess to you about something I occasionally deny yet I'm absorbed by it. I don't really feel amuse looking at the three musicateers, but once I know after so long they have muse me, it's time to reveal the truth.

I don't want to stay in hide anymore just because I don't want to admit that I enjoy being around the Hobbits because I'm an Elf. Yes, without verdict I admit it was all about ego. It's like falling in love with someone I try to deny but forever that's the one who is going to make my life better. The silly part is when everyone knows what I try to deny and that makes me feel worse than a nerd!~

From now on, I'll be singing MUSE songs whenever and wherever I want, but don't ask me detail about the group, honestly speaking... I don't care unless they stop making music. 

I've voted MUSE for Q Best Act In The World Today & Greatest Act of The Last 25 Years in the 2011. I believe the Q cover of MUSE for this 25th Anniversary Collector's Edition really fit my Utopian soul.

THE SOUND OF GLEE IN ME

When I was very young... very... very young (before 7 years old), my mother always brought me to her nasheed rehearsal with her fellow apprentices. She mentored those ladies how to do a glee & unexpectedly I followed her mentoring at heart. Since then I became fond of singing, but my mother would never like me to professionally sing (because she wanted me to do medical like my father). So whenever I was home alone (while she was away for work), I would be singing loud from front to back of my house (while did the routine of house cleaning). Seemed my mother had a collection of cassettes by Datuk Sharifah Aini & Hetty Koes Endang, I had to admit those legends are my second & third mentor in singing (beside all those nasheed tapes!).

DATUK SHARIFAH AINI

I had to suck in a lot of air into my lungs to really sang the way she did. It was great to sing like her, I brought everything out; my feeling, my breathing & most importantly my voice in the most sweet feminine way. Because of her, my voice didn't mature that much. I think... :P

Kau yang sangat ku sayang,

Kerna kau pria pendiam,

Wajahmu yang tampan,

Senyummu menawan...

Hati ini mengagumi.

Kau yang sangat ku sayang,

Kerna kau tak pernah manja,

agung peribadimu,

tenang di wajahmu,

Tiada yang menandingimu.

Ku mengkhayal bila saat nanti,

Hidup bersamamu,

Hanya dikau teman dalam duka,

Penghibur derita.

Kepadamu akulah yang manja,

Dengarkanlah sayang,

Ku pandang potretmu di dalam kamar,

Tersenyum padaku...

HETTY KOES ENDANG

Her singing skill taught me how to really let it out—the voice out of your lungs! It's like when you're about to hit the high note, always prepare your lungs to save some air so when you break it with the low note, you'll bang it down with style.

Apa erti tetes airmata

Di depanku menangis tersedu

Hapuskan saja tinggalkan diriku

Kalau itu yang engkau maksudkan

Bila ada pilihan yang lain

Kuharap kau jujur di hatimu

Katakan saja aku memaklumi

Kalau itu yang engkau mahukan

Wajahmu tampan semua orang tahu

Tak mungkin kau pilih diriku

Dan kini antara kita berdua

Belum ada ikatan yang pasti

Lupakan saja kenangan lama,

hanya satu pintaku padamu,

Simpan di hati simpanlah sayang,

Cintaku yang tulus dan suci.

Everything about singing is to find the harmonious feeling in yourself. But in order to do that, you've got to sing it with the right tune & the right feeling. You can't survive singing if you don't understand what you're singing about. So whenever you hear the experts sing, do it the way they did. Take my words, not everyone of us had the exact experience of what we're singing about, but at least try to feel what others trying to feel; especially for those who cannot sing like you, they'll need you to sing for them.

Tak tahu apa sebabnya

Mengapa aku jatuh cinta

Padamu sayang

Tiap waktu ku rindu...

Sejernih air telaga

Sebersih awan tak tercela

Hatimu sayang ku dekati

Tak terasa...

Mengapa oh Mengapa

Tak kuasa menolaknya

Dan tak kuasa menyatakan itu,

Kepadamu di saat rindu

The most important feel when you're singing is peace, harmony & best of all... LOVE. Therefore people, if you really want to sing, you've got to LOVE singing. L.O.V.E... Really got to name yourself for LOVE!

Kau yang bernama hati

Engkau yang ketahui

Perasaan ini

Kau yang bernama rindu

Mengusik hatiku

Di setiap waktu

Kau yang bernama mimpi

Sering menemani

Hidupku nan sepi

Kau yang bernama resah

Pabila kau tiba

Aku yang tersiksa

Cinta itukah namamu

Aku yang tak tahu

Merasa terganggu

Kerianganku bertukar sayu

Ku jadi tak tentu

Gilakah aku keranamu

But love story in the GLEE drama series really about to show people, how messed up we are as human being when it comes to love. There are times when we thought we're in love with someone, yet at the same time we're dating someone else. When we thought someone we love is only normal when exactly abnormal! So the best way to get over it is find a song that tells your feeling & enjoy the moment with it. Or else, be weak & hate everything your hear. So I took a lesson with GLEE...

Never let my feeling being influenced by other people who came up to me & try to spoil my mood from loving someone I know I'm deeply in love with in songs that I sang!

NOTE: I'm writing this while watching GLEE Season 1 & those Malay lyrics are the only I can tune in my head without even have to copy & paste. d[^_^]b

IRIDESCENT

You were standing in the wake of devastation

And you were waiting on the edge of the unknown

And with the cataclysm raining down

Insides crying "Save me now"

You were there, impossibly alone

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go. Let it go

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel

As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars

You felt the gravity of tempered grace

Falling into empty space

No one there to catch you in their arms

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go. Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And...

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration And let it go. 
Let it go... "

Ost 'Transformers: Dark of the Moon'

Artist: Linkin Park

WORDS I NEVER SAID; CHASING PAVEMENTS

Are you tired, darling? Are you feeling fatigued of waiting for our emotional in love being reconciled? There's no wait that even more painful than waiting for us to be together; in the moment to develop memories of us having life as two in one for others to see our freedom. But...

"I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence. Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it. We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth. So scared of what you think of me, I'm scared of even telling you. Sometimes I'm like the only person I feel safe to tell it to. I'm locked inside a cell in me, I know that there's a jail in you. Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few. My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through... — Words I Never Said [Lupe Fiasco (fet. Skyler Grey)]

Yes, there's always 'but' just because we like to procrastinate about the truth of our feeling. The longer we wait, the emotion has become dry, like a leaf I found on the street—rotten, waiting to be swept away by who knows... a moving wheel, shoe soles or maybe by a broom of the street cleaner. Even when this leaf is maybe going to be taken by a curious pedestrian, I don't think I will last long in the heart of a stranger that I don't deeply love.

Only you has the magic to make me green again...

"I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over. If I'm wrong, I am right. Don't need to look no further, This ain't lust, I know this is love. But, if I tell the world, I'll never say enough, 'cause it was not said to you. And that's exactly what I need to do If I end up with you... " — Chasing Pavements [Adele]

... and I'll be around when you need me, come to me if you are free, imagine me in your mind if you are lonely and reach me every time you miss me. Soon, I'll do the same... or else, we'll be faking our heart till the end of our life.    

3 HATI 2 DUNIA 1 CINTA

Menghadapi kemerdekaan tanpa cinta,

Kau takkan mengerti segala lukaku,

Kerna cinta telah sembunyikan pisaunya...

Bayangkan wajahmu adalah seksa,

Kesepian adalah ketakutan dan kelumpuhan.

Engkau telah menjadi racun bagi darahku.

Apabila aku dalam kangen dan sepi,

itulah bererti aku tungku tanpa api...

"Tiada kebetulan di dunia ini kerana semuanya telah ditentukan Tuhan. Pertemuan juga bukan satu kebetulan, kerana itu kehendak Tuhan buat mengenal jodoh kita. Namun mengapa tiada hukum yang dapat menyatukan kita secara sempurna? Itu... kita lihat saja nanti." 

::: Diinspirasikan daripada '3 HATI 2 DUNIA 1 CINTA'

SODERBERGH: THE RIGHT TIME TO LET GO

"Everything is feeling really familiar & that's not good. The solution is to tear down my process & rebuild it from scratch. It's not an incremental process. It has to be scorched earth. I have to stop making films & maybe later come at it from a different angle. It would be abnormal to keep going, an insult to the art form."

— said Steven Soderbergh to The Times

Best known for his 'Erin Brokovich', 'Traffic', 'Ocean's Eleven', 'Ocean's Twelve', 'Ocean's Thirteen', 'Full Frontal', 'The Informant!' & among others, more than 20 movies he has directed.

It was at the age of 26 years old that he got his first pride in the International Film Industry as a director through 'Sex, Lies & Videotapes' (1989 film), by winning Palme d'Or award at Cannes Film Festival. While at that similar age, I got my first pride in the Malaysia Comic Industry by becoming sub-editor for a local comic magazine, GEMPAK™ that soon later became one of the Malaysia's best selling magazine in the respective industry. So when he decided to quit his position as one of the best director in the Hollywood film industry—his decision came after 22 years while mine came after 10 years.

He is planning to focus more on his painting while I want to focus more on my comic arts. You might saying, am I bragging over my achievement in the Malaysia Comic Industry by comparing it with the Academy Award's winner? Why Should I?! When all I wanted to do is making a prove that in life...

When we got stuck up to familiarity,

art don't prevail in such manner.

Maybe Soderbergh has given so much in his directorial career that he wants to get back to what he enjoys most, painting. Same goes to me! I've done so much for the GEMPAK™ magazine as a sub editor then editor; wrote lots of articles, trained a lot of people for their best, convinced a lot of clients & at the same time able to draw comics; published at least 4 books. Things got to change, if you don't decide early before it's too late—before hurricane strikes your fate, do it on time while you can!

Maybe most of his fans hoped after filming 'Side Effects' (2013 film), he might changes his mind & directs a few more movies. But I hope he will not do that & keeps on focus on his plan to pursue painting. At my age of 37 years old (this coming 14th February 2012), I feel overly old already because I've done so much to my life, gave up so much of my love line. While he is already 49 years old (a few months older than Brad Pitt) & already a benchmark to the respective career, which is the best time to call it a "CUT!" & moves on to his own favourite "ACTION!"

My saying is...

Why stay firm to something that makes you a hit but unhappy compared by doing something makes you steady but happy.

OUR IDIOT BROTHER: BAHLOL vs. BODOH

"I just figured, looking at your sheet, that since you sold grass to a uniformed police officer that you must be retarded."

— Omar (Parole Officer)

Kalau korang terjemahkan perkataan idiot ke Bahasa Melayu, terjemahannya ialah bodoh yakni sama dengan maksud stupid. Tetapi mengikut kamus Bahasa Inggeris, maksud idiot & stupid memang berbeza. Tetapi dalam kamus saya sendiri, idiot bermaksud bahlol & stupid bermaksud bodoh.

BODOH

Manusia jenis bodoh ni ialah yang taktau apa² tentang sesuatu perkara tetapi beria-ia kata diorang tau. Niat diorang cuma nak tunjuk pandai depan orang lain walau pada hakikatnya memang terang-terang bodoh. Penampilan diorang ni nampak macam pandai sebab suka melebih dalam banyak perkara, atau senang kata ego tinggi, tetapi dalam lebih banyak perkara diorang ni memang sangat bodoh. Perumpamaannya kalau korang dok tepi curam yang dalam dengan si bodoh ni, diorang takkan rasa gayat (atau takkan mengaku diorang gayat) tapi diorang akan terlambat untuk tahu bahawa niat korang ialah untuk tolak diorang jatuh gaung!

"Just because you're straight doesn't mean you're homophobic."

— Jeremy

BAHLOL

Berbeza dengan manusia jenis bahlol ni, diorang pandai berhidup tetapi sangat lurus bendul & tak pandai berpura-pura! Nak kata diorang ni top-scorer kat sekolah pun tak juga tapi sekurang-kurangnya apa yang diorang belajar, diorang boleh ingat. Tapi satu jer yang bahaya tentang si bahlol ni, diorang belajar apa yang boleh layan di kepala diorang jer. Paksalah camner pun, takkan dilayannya. Namun dari sudut positif, si bahlol ni boleh dikatakan sangat jujur sampai mampu memecah-belahkan perhubungan orang lain dengan kejujurannya tu. Camner? Bahlol tak bijak simpan rahsia orang lain kecuali untuk kepentingan diri sendiri. Kenapa? Secara psikologinya diorang ni penyayang tapi tak sayang mulut! 

"You don't tell your parole officer that you just got high."

— Omar (Parole Officer)

BODOH MENJENGKELKAN!

Tak kiralah siapa pun, selagi korang tak mempelajari sesuatu subjek sampai pandai, jangan memandai nak mengkritik orang lain yang berkaitan dengan subjek tersebut. Sebagai contoh, kalau sebutan bahasa Inggeris korang pun tak betul jangan nak kritik sebutan nyanyian bahasa Inggeris Dato' CT Nurhaliza tu gagal, faham? Sekurang-kurangnya yang terbitkan album dia tu memang dilahirkan berbahasa Inggeris bukan seperti korang, para pengkritik bodoh. Pada sesiapa yang berkawan dengan si bodoh ni memang menyedihkan sebab terpaksa melayan kebodohan diorang hingga nak memperbetulkan pun tak dapat sebab pendirian bodoh diorang!

BAHLOL MENYEDIHKAN!

Seperkara tentang manusia bahlol ni, diorang memang spesis kasihan. Percayalah, diorang bukan jenis manusia yang suka menyakitkan hati sesiapa tetapi kerana penyakit bahlol, sebaik manapun diorang ada banyak perkara tentang diorang yang kita tak boleh ambil hati. Sebagai contoh apabila korang hendak mengadu tentang sipolan kepada si bahlol ni, pastikan korang bersedia untuk penangan sipolan apabila aduan korang sampai ke pengetahuannya. Yeap! Bahlol ni memang jujur tetapi tidak pandai menjaga hati orang lain apabila menuturkan kebenaran. Diorang tidak berniat untuk mencetuskan peperangan hanya kerana tidak pandai mengawal maklumat... memang sedeyyy! 

BAHLOL vs. BODOH

Secara logiknya, setiap daripada korang sebagai manusia memang ada penyakit bahlol. Tetapi penyakit tersebut taklah begitu ketara kalau korang sedar akan kebahlolan korang untuk diperakui & diperbaiki. Yang menjadi bahlolnya korang apabila korang tak sedar betapa bodohnya korang untuk tidak mengakuinya hingga menjadi jenaka orang. Semakin korang membiarkan diri korang diperbodohkan, maka semakin jelaslah betapa bahlolnya korang di pengetahuan ramai. Bila semua dah tahu, itu bukan bodoh lagi tapi memang sah dah bahlol!

BAHLOL = BAHAYA TOLOL

BODOH = BONGOK HODOH

P/S: Kalau korang marahkan penulis dengan artikel ni nyatalah korang dalam kategori bodoh, tetapi kalau korang tak faham dengan artikel ni memang korang dalam kategori bahlol. Namun jika korang berdamai dengan artikel ni... you know what I mean, heh! *wink*